Resolutions

I have wanted to start a blog for a really long time.  This year I have decided to make it my New Years resolution.  I love to journal and write, so I am concerned that I may divulge way too much information. I am dorky. I know I am dorky. My blog will probably be somewhat all over the place just like I am. First and foremost, I am a mom. I adore my boys. I love Twilight, but I also love the bible.  I am conservative, but I am obsessed with celebrities. I love trying new hairstyles and makeup but I may not wash my hair for a week. I have highs and lows. I am happy and love life. I am grateful for the life God has given me. I trust in Him and do not question Him. However, I am tormented by the loss of my best friend. I miss her every day. I struggle with my grief and the loss of the only person who knew every thing about me. She was my person. It was a really hard year. I lost my best friend, was diagnosed with an incurable disease (that most people don't know about), and lost 50 pounds only to gain it all back. I am human. I have high hopes for 2012. I want to be a better wife, mother, and friend. In May I will graduate from college. There are no words to describe what this personal accomplishment will mean to me. No one did this for me. I did it all on my own. No one pushed me or even encouraged me to do it. Everyone thought I was crazy and that I wouldn't finish. Except Carrie, she was my biggest cheerleader and knew I would do it.  I miss her everyday but I also have some amazing friends.  Sometimes I feel guilty for missing her so much. I can't imagine how much her family misses her and I don't want my other friends to feel like they aren't important to me.  They are.  Like I said, this blog will probably be all over the place. That's ok. I'm doing this for me, not you. So, to wrap it up, I am going to try this blog thing and see how it goes.  I'm not making any promises.