New Beginning

I have been getting complaints that I am not blogging enough.  So here goes. It has been an exciting week but a LONG week.  This week marked my last semester of undergrad.  There is so much to look forward to this year. On Tuesday I begin student teaching.  Please pray that I connect with my cooperating teacher and that I am able to do my best.  This week I also ordered my graduation invitations and booked my graduation trip to Los Angeles.  We are so excited about going to L.A. We are going to see the Pacific Ocean, Disney Land, and hopefully some celebrities.  We love to travel and have been fortunate to have been able to do some traveling in the nine years that we have been married.  We have been to Minneapolis, New York, 2 cruises, and Cincinnati, to name a few.  I would like to visit every single state. I am praying and relying on God for the upcoming changes in our lives.  We have lived off of one income for the last five years, and a public servant's income at that. We are looking forward to having additional income and pray that it will not be difficult for me to find a job.  I am staying open and trying to remember that God will put me where he sees fit.

The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. Psalm 18:2

Wait on the Lord: be of good courage. and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

Resolutions

I have wanted to start a blog for a really long time.  This year I have decided to make it my New Years resolution.  I love to journal and write, so I am concerned that I may divulge way too much information. I am dorky. I know I am dorky. My blog will probably be somewhat all over the place just like I am. First and foremost, I am a mom. I adore my boys. I love Twilight, but I also love the bible.  I am conservative, but I am obsessed with celebrities. I love trying new hairstyles and makeup but I may not wash my hair for a week. I have highs and lows. I am happy and love life. I am grateful for the life God has given me. I trust in Him and do not question Him. However, I am tormented by the loss of my best friend. I miss her every day. I struggle with my grief and the loss of the only person who knew every thing about me. She was my person. It was a really hard year. I lost my best friend, was diagnosed with an incurable disease (that most people don't know about), and lost 50 pounds only to gain it all back. I am human. I have high hopes for 2012. I want to be a better wife, mother, and friend. In May I will graduate from college. There are no words to describe what this personal accomplishment will mean to me. No one did this for me. I did it all on my own. No one pushed me or even encouraged me to do it. Everyone thought I was crazy and that I wouldn't finish. Except Carrie, she was my biggest cheerleader and knew I would do it.  I miss her everyday but I also have some amazing friends.  Sometimes I feel guilty for missing her so much. I can't imagine how much her family misses her and I don't want my other friends to feel like they aren't important to me.  They are.  Like I said, this blog will probably be all over the place. That's ok. I'm doing this for me, not you. So, to wrap it up, I am going to try this blog thing and see how it goes.  I'm not making any promises.